Today I finished university forever.
I must be honest, me and university have always had a love hate relationship. Though not for one minute did I think I would be typing this, at the end of my university career three years later, when it feels like only yesterday I had the biggest knot in my stomach and feeling of loneliness as I sobbed goodbye to Luke at the bench half way between our houses knowing that everything was going to change from that moment.
I can’t lie, I highly doubted whether I was cut out for going at it alone. Obviously me and Luke stayed together and it worked out for us but initially it was so hard. Being thrown out into this new world of university and not quite knowing what was next would keep me up for many sleepless nights, but then all of a sudden, it got easier. Becoming used to the pattern of a long distance relationship, spending my life waiting at train stations constantly passing between England and Scotland, to finally starting to feel comfortable being on my own again and getting on with university life.
I’ll never forget my first day, walking into my design studio to the utter silence of everyone sat there not knowing what to say, until I heard my friend Rob belt out at the top of his lungs ‘alright ya dickhead!’ (To which everyone else was quite clearly alarmed – why was he shouting this at a poor random girl entering the room?) only it turns out we went to college together and failed to tell one another we had applied to the same course, and got accepted. After all became quite clear to everyone else, it was so comforting to know that I wasn’t alone, and that it was all going to be okay.
Fast forward by two years and after many considerations of dropping out after realising what real university education is like, and even after the consideration of a career change, I fell back in love with design, and with uni.
It might have been rubbish in parts but the friends, laughter, and memories I’ve made along the way I wouldn’t change for the world. To know that very soon now I’ll be moving 200 miles to be living in Edinburgh, in my own apartment with friends, and being an awful lot closer to Luke; I’ve never been more excited, yet apprehensive, for the future.
So to all my fellow graduates out there, here’s to you.